I confess I haven’t been in the best of moods lately. It’s affecting my running groove. It’s affecting my overall energy. I feel like someone zapped me and took all my good mojo and left me with….well, left me with PERI-F-ING-MENOPAUSE!
Yep, perimenopause has arrived full force. Herinafter known as ‘PM’. It has been a gradual, subtle little entrance for some time, but suddenly, it seems to have taken over my body in grand style! I guess I’ve ignored symptoms for so long, it finally decided to be a little more of an obvious presence in my day to day life. And oh, it worked….I have now sat up and taken notice.
(At this point, guys – feel free to click on to the next blog in your reader….unless of course you have a 40-something someone in your life, in which case – hey, stick around, you may get some much needed insight to why your significant other has become like an alien in your home!)
This blog is really about running now, but some of the things I am experiencing right now are affecting my running – as is the case with women runners in general. I don’t see a lot of discussion of this though in blogs, and I know, we are all trying to be considerate of our male population of readers, and the LAST thing we women want to do is to blame anything on the very thing that defines us as women…we want to appear to be strong and tough after all, weaker sex be damned!
And so, I give you my hellish list of symptoms, pretty much in order of appearance over about the last year or so. And let me just say also, I appear to be living a very ‘textbook’ example of PM (greeaaaaat….), starting with the fact that the average age of menopause for women is 51, and perimenopause symptoms generally start up to 10 years prior. How nice for ME given that I will be 42 in 3 months! My only hope is that since I started having periods pretty much the day I turned 12, maybe I will be through all this nonsense well before age 51.
- First, my normally 29 day clockwork cycle became predictably unpredictable. I
now have shorter cycles (23 days) and longer but lighter periods. Basically, I ovulate as soon as I finish my period. Holy Hormonal Fluctuation! My Ovulation symptoms are usually worse than PMS.
- My hair is falling out. Not too concerned – I have freakishly thick locks. It’s just embarrassing when I go to get my hair done and the poor stylist things he did something to it!
- Irritability and impatience.
- Interrupted sleep. Yep, waking at 3am and not able to fall back asleep until 10 minutes before my alarm goes off. Makes it kind of hard to get up for morning runs which is what I would prefer to do – because I really am a morning person.
- Night Sweats. This is relatively new – or happening more frequently. Especially in the week before my period. Woke up in the middle of the night last night absolutely drenched – especially on my chest, but I felt cool. Very weird.
- Heart palpitations. Again, this is new in the last 4 months. Nothing like sitting in a meeting talking and suddenly feeling like your heart is going to explode right out of your chest! And no, this is NOT anxiety. Believe me, I know the difference. This always happens around those ‘fluctuation’ times in my cycle. Same with the night sweats.
- Fog brain . Yep, poor memory, can’t concentrate on mental tasks, my normally great ‘recall’ that everyone comes to me for – gone. I feel like I have ADD. Seriously. I think this is why running feels so good to me. Because I can just go and let my mind wander and be free to think however it wants. When I get to work and have to focus on spreadsheets, figures and multiple tasks – things get a little challenging for me.
- Fatigue. This could be from many different things obviously, starting with interrupted sleep, the still ‘new’ physical stress I’ve been putting my body through over the last 10 months, the hormonal swings (I think of my teenage kids and their need to sleep ). Whatever is driving it – it sucks. I need energy to run!
- Increased body fat. NICE. Especially around the middle. It has been so difficult for me to drop these last 10 – 15 pounds over the last year.
I’m sure I’ve forgotten something, but really…the list is long enough already! I was thinking about all this last night and I have to wonder how I’d be if i were NOT exercising and eating a healthy diet? I’d probably be a mess!
So….what to do about it? Well for starters, I’m due for a physical so of course I’ll be discussing all of this with my doctor, who is also a runner which is pretty cool. I want to manage all of this as naturally as possible, so of course I will continue to exercise and keep a close eye on my diet. Which is not perfect all the time, but I am paying attention to it! I have to keep up with taking my mega ultra-vitamins. I’m SO bad about taking vitamins.
And, I have to try my best to run through it. I refuse to let all of this sideline me. I wanted to run this morning early…but could NOT get up, since I was semi-awake from 3-4am. Now I sit here at my desk yawning, wondering how the hell I will feel like running this evening after a long day at work…work which is NOT making me happy or providing any fulfillment in life at the present time. It is mentally exhausting at times and causing me to re-evaluate some things….
I have ideas about what I would LIKE to do when I ‘grow up’…but it almost sounds like a mid-life crisis, crazy idea , so I am still thinking about taking a leap of faith. I’m still chicken, let’s put it that way. More to come there….
And so ends my sort of running related post for the day. Bottom line is, this shiz better not last too long...because PM is gonna s*ck!